UPDATE: Steven Kraft still missing, 11 years later

UPDATE: Steven Kraft still missing, 11 years later


Please if you have seen him, or know anything it would mean the world to his friends and family.

Happy Valentines day!

Today has been anything but easy for me, So may of last year i made some stupid choice, was starting birth control. I didn't know i was pregnant till i had lost the baby completely, Middle of June around my birthday i lightly bleed for about a week and a half maybe two weeks and than stopped bleeding, i never thought anything about it, June 25th i went to a birthday party that was for me and my 2 siblings born on or around the same day, i enjoyed myself. That night at my sister place i started having bad cramping but no bleeding, that is the only time pregnancy crossed my mind. I carried on about my business as usual though, But June 30th very late at night technically it was July 1st, I passed the majority of the tissue than and only bleed a few days after, but from what i seen that pregnancy was gone, I was 7 weeks almost 8 weeks, and pretty sure i lost the baby at 6 weeks. Back to why today hasn't been easy for me, well it is because this was my estimated due date, In my mind i believe that angel was a little girl, and i will always think that. She is my angel that is looking over right next to her sister Teagan. Been a painful day but i try to look ahead knowing I'll see her again one day. I know i didn't write very much, but there isn't much to say. 


So Happy Valentines Day! everyone

More old and current weight loss pictures

I'm know where near what weight i want to be, it is slow progress but at least there is progress

Offical first weight lose blog of 2012

So right now not very much to update on yet, i did find out about how much i weigh and i am super embarrassed by it.

Happy New Year!

So made it to 2012, And oh boy I've been reflecting on 2011 and everything i went through, More than i realize or at least that's the way it feels but I'll go into that later. I've made a few new year resolutions that i know i can stick to. So here they are

• Lose 150 pounds
• stay positive and happy

• Get a drivers license -_-   

And on that note, since being pregnant back in may when i knew my weight i have lost weight, not sure how much since my last pregnancy so i can't tell you on that part.

 Reflecting on 2011  

   So i guess I'll dive right in, January and February were uneventful last year, March i got back with on of my ex boyfriends (big mistake, He's a sex addict)got pregnant the first time in march and i kind of knew and test it was positive(sorry no picture i deleted it soon after) and i didn't tell him, I kept my party life style up cause i didn't believe it, I lost the baby in April I was only a few weeks along. In may i went and got on birth control, and yet again i got back with the same ex -_- very stupid i know, and guess what... I got pregnant again, did not know so of course i kept partying( just drinking beer, I actually had morning sickness around my birthday beginning of summer but i thought it was from drinking cheap vodka,at the time i would have been 6 1/2 weeks pregnant but again i didn't know, I spotted for a week to 2 weeks lightly but i thought that was that months cycle just starting birth control, June 25th to about July 1 st i cramped really bad, and July first at about 8 weeks i lost baby, end of July i started talking to a childhood friend, and we ended up dating, for about 2 months and we broke up he moved on right away which hurt, my other ex ( would have been baby daddy) tried getting back with me and tried to get me to sleep with him. that has went on since end of September beginning of October till well actually now. December I asked my close friend's brother out, he said yes, than the next day we broke up and believe it or not it hurt. Yes i knew him before hand, But that situation is neither here nor there. So i guess that is all i am going to write so about not having any pictures right now, very busy holiday and a very full camera with a review for influnster.com so i will have that up here soon i hope.


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Break ups, Stress and too much thinking

So i guess i say that a lot has changed for me since i lasted posted, My wonderful friend (I'll call him Aj)and i broke up but that was for the best after things have happen and currently i can't bring myself to text him. So yes i had a break up, and don't want to talk about it yet with many people.

  So lately I've been very, very stressed, depressed, and having a lot of anxiety attacks some caused by the break up, and yes if you haven't noticed that i actually kind of loved him so i am hurting, but also my mother has to have surgery, and I'm stuck living at home till I'm almost 21, But my old friends and my ex bf that would have been the father to my baby/babies checking in on me frequently. That's another thing that has been on my mind since almost everyone i know is pregnant is if i would have kept either of the pregnancies i would be due soon. Don't get me wrong I'm glad I'm not pregnant or a mommy just yet. 

  So I've also set the goal to lose 164 pounds within a year, I've noticed exercising and friendship bracelets. So i have plans on updating as i go. Any tips on losing extra weight would help.

Sadly i've neglected my blog

Not a whole lot has gone on, i have not moved or anything, just busy spending time with family and friends. so i am just going to have give you a few pictures till something interesting happens.

Moving date changed

So as i stated before i have plans on moving out of my parents house. Well i thought it was going to be soon than it was, I still have plans on moving hopefully within the next few months. Meaning that I'm not moving in September :/ because they didn't get the apartment. Hopefully i can get him a ride down here so we can see each other, but other than that nothing important enough to blog about. Also look for make-up looks, that i will probably be posting later on to night. 

Every feel like your hearts ripped out

Yep, well that's pretty much all i felt all day, I guess depression does rear its ugly head at the worst times. So down to less than 2 weeks before i move, My last weekend in my home town is this weekend (august 26-28), and I've barely talked to my boyfriend these passed few days, yes i know its sound like i am a fricking young teen, but I'm not and i really care for him, that's what makes the days hard, lol. That's also why my heart feels like its been ripped out. So small updates till i move, because i'll probably be with out internet for a while. Short sweet, simply, and straight to the point.

Weightloss update

Okay, so i think this is my first one, but i'm in the process of shedding pounds, just and picture update to show. I haven't weighed or measured myself, i will once i absolutely have to by new clothes.